A new beginning.

I'm going to attempt. to start over.
I cried for three hours straight last night, then finally fell asleep.
I think i got it all out.
I hypervenilated. (i cant spell)
It hurt. I couldn't breathe. But the tears kept coming, soaking my pillow.
I think i could let more out right now...
I dont want to be like this anymore.
I want the old me back.
I've lost her.
It's my mission to find her again.
I dont get it, the second i walk into school i get so mad and pissed off, and the littlest things piss me off.
I dont like that, at all.
Im disgusted with myself.
I want to let it all go.
all of it.
I want Savannah back.
I'm trying. My damn hardest.
I needed a day today.
i got that day.
Part of me thinks its the people im friends with.
Their attitudes influence mine, so therefor they're rubbing off on me.
Which i dont like.
If they all realized there's so much to live for, maybe they wont be such sour pusses about everything.
All that negative energy we harbor is being taken out on eachother, and the people we love the most. WHY?!
Show the people you love that you love them!
Don't reject the love your friends ask for and show you.
They just need to be shown they're loved and cared for. like a friend SHOULD be.
Don't shut your friends out because you can't handle things you're dealing with and feeling.
Friends are there to help you! Not to be shut out of your life.
I dont know if this blog even has a point...but yeah.
I guess I thought i'd share.
Nap time.