Reinventing.

Its pretty intense how fast things can change.
In an instant.
By the speed of light.

For the longest time I tried to be the person people thought i was.
Then I tried to be the opposite of what people thought i was.
Then in this longing process to find who i am, I lost myself and confused my mind to a point of depression.

Time was passing, and I was still searching for these answers.
All of these troubles filling up my skull.
You know what i figured out?

The answer never came to me.

So there i was.
Sitting, sinking, drowning with and in all of this confusion.

I started to realize.

The more i try to find me.
The farther away from myself i was.
Make sense?

With this.
I have freed myself from the majority of these overwhelming problems.
Any image or problems are now water under that great big bridge.

I dont know exactly the full on point of this.
But thanks.

With love,

Sav.

Bailey Alina

Bailey Filkoski.
Weirdest lsat name

I told you I'd have a blog for you soon.
Youre sitting next to me so I can't exactly write much until you're not reading this.
So I'll start by saying I love you to death.
I always start my day by saying "I need my Bailey!"
(By the way, I'm not completely ignoring my other friends i love to death, i love you all. But i Promised my Bai that I'd write her one.)
You are one of the most honest friends i have, If I look fat you tell me, pretty you tell me, bad, funny looking anything.
You give your honest opinion always.
When I'm sad, there's something about you that just instantly makes me just fine again...
I have to go.
well fuck!
I'll write more when i have time:)

6:15

Tessa called me at 6:15 this morning...I called back like two minutes later.
I said "You better be dying..."
she goes "Actually, my butt called you..."
I told her thank you and hung up.
She knows i love her still.
But im absolutely DEAD this morning...
onsomerealshit ima kirk out.
gahhhhhhhhh.
I.need.sleep.

smile loves.

Megan Ann Joiner.

Okay so,
We're sitting in our first block, and i got to thinking.
How Im so mean to that girl...She's my bestfriend.
And the relationship we have is absolutely unexplainable.
Im like that big sister that picks on her little sister constantly, and we both know we love eachother.
She gets my sarcasm and mean-ness.
She doesn't take it seriously because she knows not to.
I show my love for people veryy differently.
but in the end, I don't know where i would be without her.
She loves to be loud and get attention, she loves to be loved.
She makes me laugh like crazzzzyyyyy.
And she's reading this as im writing:)
haha She goes
"WAIT! hold the phone! What holiday is the 31st?"
and i said "Memorial day"
"nu uh...really?" she said.
So i replied with "No shit."
hahaha and we smiled.
She definitely gets me.
I love that girl with all i got.
<3


Yes Bailey, one is coming for you too.

My clock has been stopped on 11:11 for some time now...

Promise yourself to be strong, that nothing can disturb your peace of mind. Look at the sunny side of everything and make your optimism come true. Think only of the best, work only for the best, and except only the best. Forget the mistakes of the past and press on to the greater achievements of the future. Give so much time to the improvement of yourself that you have no time to criticize others. Live in faith that the whole world is on your side so as long as you are true to the best that is in you.

Summertime.

It's fucking hot as shit in this school.
I KNOW when i go to my next class im going to fuggin sweat! D: eeeeww.
Its kinda cold in my current class.
And this heat id making me think about this upcoming summer...
its WILL be epic. Last summer was boring. I stayed home and did nothing almost all summer.
This summer, I plan on doing something alllllll the time.
I plan on partying.
I plan on hanging outside at night, in shorts and a hoodie<3
I WILL make this summer a summer that I'll always remember.

Fucking pissed.

So i am in that mood that i need to just fucking vent.

So this post right here is NOT going to be very pleasing for you...

BUT.

Today was some fucking bullshit.

I dont think anyone has any right to completely flip the fuck out on someone for absolute no gosh damn reason!

You can take all that shit you said and shove it right up your fucking ass you prick.

I havent been this angry in the longest time.

If you say its not his fault, or my fault. then whos fucking fault is it? HIS.

I dont want to lose my bestfriend because of some fucking selfish asshole who doesnt give a flying fuck about anyone.

No im not going to fucking reply to what you said to me because youre so fucking low and full of BULLSHIT. Everything you fucking said what a damn lie.

YOU feel that way. So don't fucking say Everyone. YOU are the only one who feels that way.

And nobody gives two shits. I know that for a fact.

I've tried to get along with you for the sake of my friendship with my bestfriend. But no, you just can't fucking handle it.

Youre so gosh damn protective that if she doesn't give YOU the amount of fucking attention YOU want you throw a damn hissy fit! grow the fuck up! Pull your head out of your ass please! Dammit. I have neverrrr wanted to say i hate someone. ever. until NOW.

You fucking piece of shit! You gave me a right to attack you now. So here i am. Im fucking saying how i feel.

You're fucking selfish. A prick. Arrogant. Ignorant. Self-centered. Controlling. Jealous. so many more. I could go on for fucking ever. I see you as trash.

She is my bestfriend, and if you don't like it oh fucking well!

I love her to death.

You dont fucking like ANYONE. you say IM the problem, when you alwaayysss have problems with anyone who's close to her. because youre fucking jealous!! You try to get rid of everyone who is close to her so you can have her to your fucking self. You selfish bastard.

IM not the reason you fight. IM not the problem. You have problems with EVERYONE. So fuck off. I can't fucking stand you. And this post isn't even close to how i feel about you right now.

I want her to know, (my bestfriend) that i apologize she's in the middle of this. It's not fair to her. I don't want to lose her, so i dealt with his shit. But he crossed the line tonight. I love her to death, and she's still my bestfriend. So he can keep trying to get rid of me. Im not fucking going anywhere.